Gary's daily rant zone

Turtle

2010-04-28T10:13:00.000-07:00

indestructible only on the outside

0 motivation

2010-02-12T06:06:00.000-08:00

are our hands so tired our eyes so close that as we reach our ending we will end it with a badly played note

one man army

2010-02-03T23:05:00.000-08:00

bite my tongue and suffer for the better good? when my "friends dont even help"being too nice or acting too blind?

Back to the Future

2010-02-03T04:23:00.000-08:00

when people say they want to go back in the past to fix things..... i just want to punch old Gary

hahasadhahasadha

2010-02-02T07:36:00.000-08:00

strength just that little more walk just a little more

night ligths and darkness

2010-01-29T08:20:00.001-08:00

so so cold.....dark + cold + brain = not fun

bad happenings

2010-01-25T05:41:00.000-08:00

Another Monday with bad news directly after cca well i guess thats 2 for 2

another thing to note i dont update often let alone interesting stuff so i doubt many if not none at all
but if you are reading this i guess i can say you are awesome thanks

Lazy sunday

2010-01-16T19:57:00.001-08:00

is very lazy

fall backs and lacking

2010-01-05T04:43:00.000-08:00

Regret takes to long to hit me and too hard for me to react but i hope who ever is willing to take their time to even read this forgive me i just dont want to look weak..

sums up everything

2009-12-31T09:53:00.001-08:00

2009 meh.. 2010 meh?

Waking up

2009-12-09T07:03:00.000-08:00

hard work comes reward now all i have to do is work hard and then i will reap the benefits that i work for
The Time Has Come

a crack in the armor

2009-11-16T08:23:00.000-08:00

I..I dunno what to say anymore i am at wits end.I want to give up but i dont want to i want to cry but i cant. I want to run but i got no place to run to. oh man havent feel this crappy since since...

Emoemoemoemoemoemoemoemoemoemoemoemoemoemo

2009-11-06T01:56:00.000-08:00

yay photography is awesome time to play around with the camera at home :)

O,..,O<== vampire

sianz still pain sia D:

but at least i am kinda enjoying ending my sentences with a face
\<..>/ lame sol

Blog ..blog blog

2009-11-01T20:17:00.001-08:00

dont want to sound emo so thou shall not emo and to suckers who think they can get away with screwing with my life well enjoy i know who you are and its only a matter of time

tank will be tank steel will be steel

2009-10-20T08:31:00.000-07:00

I have no idea how now a days things that are suppose to make people feel like crap is just barely affecting me its like....awesome i guess

gone

2009-10-10T07:09:00.000-07:00

zoom and its like forever has pass its like ages ago since china..wow time sure flies..oh well~~

2009-10-02T09:58:00.000-07:00

steel myself to the pain and cries of the inner heart...does it mean i am heartless now...?

1 problem solved 2 more problems appear

2009-09-28T07:31:00.000-07:00

2 weeks...back in Singapore yet i have not missed anything here....
2 weeks worth of stuff to rant 2 weeks worth of stuff to pour out
yet nothing of relevance is in my brain right now
mess...... its all a mess a huge massive mess
time to do what i do best shut off.....

extra info
1st lunch in singapore ate 2 person's worth of chicken rice and 2 cups to tea ice :X

lame game

2009-09-04T01:19:00.000-07:00

will nothing i do ever work i am running out of ideas and this is wearing me down like hell *sign*

2009-08-23T08:37:00.000-07:00

back to where i started or have i been standing at the same spot all the while

bad luck or looking in the wrong pool for fish?

2009-08-11T09:04:00.000-07:00

title if u dont get it nvm but pardon me while i go to a dark corner to /emo

O_O

2009-08-05T07:01:00.000-07:00

quite blank lately blur as hell X_X oh well a useless post yet i guess its better than ranting all the time right right???

/hate /rant

2009-07-30T09:10:00.000-07:00

some people should get a life or even better just die and do a world a favor by removing your filthy disgusting way of thinking and your ugly face from the face of the earth FOR LIFE

serious time now

2009-07-22T07:11:00.001-07:00

just had my Japanese reading test today got slapped with the cold hard truth that i can barely read Japanese let alone write it. With only one week lift till the writing test i have to options left
1. is to let it drop like my Chinese to hell and only be able to speak it
2.study like hell till i can read and write Japanese fluently no matter the cost
i think ill chose the latter.

its quiet here good/bad ?

2009-07-07T02:23:00.000-07:00

well its been awhile since i last posted and no i am still pretty much alive but my absence would probably just mean that during the time its was boring and nothing special oh well had a recoring project to do on friday it was i guess in a way fun oh well i do still miss the old times so much but we grew legs so that we can walk on and so i will :/

/emo

2009-06-26T09:37:00.000-07:00

the left hand wants to hold the heart to stop it from bleeding while the right hand wants to carve it out to stop the pain...

it felt like it was an eternaty ago

2009-06-25T10:45:00.000-07:00

Not long ago i told myself it was screwed beyond repair and to walk away before i go hurt and i did. Yet after so long so many things i still feel the same as the day when every thing was fine and nice where i was so confident that nothing will go wrong.the day before....

the lonelyness,blue screen and something broken

2009-06-21T19:44:00.001-07:00

just came back from a week long holiday X_X tired no strength to rant :/

D:

2009-06-04T09:09:00.001-07:00

had icecream during my 6hr break today lol and later went to watch a show today its not bad a few mistakes here and there but still acceptable........

spent the time going home thinking and feeling that that my futre is bleak theres nothing in front of me to move to nothing beside me to lean no and nothing behind me to fall back on its like standing on the middle of no where back where i started i guess

half of the rainbow after the storm/am i expecting too much

2009-05-27T08:43:00.001-07:00

had my japanese speaking test today went first but was not very nervous manage to get 99.999% of the things right i guess :D and i got to went home early went to skate with yeeteng and ian still cant t-break...lolomgwtfbbq but the in the end i pulled my stomach muscle D: need to hold back cough

bad luck or not?

2009-05-26T08:50:00.000-07:00

i guess old habits really do die hard well i cant say i blame any particular person for it happening it most probably is the lack of control that lead to this. That also is probably not the whole reason for it happening well i guess its just a series of unfortunate events that happen in a really really bad row...

Well looks like i got both of my legs stuck in quicksand while trying to get something which sunk in.something important yet not necessary,easy to make yet hard to let go.I used to be able to hold on too it yet through time i got more and more tired and the weight of the sand forces the thing down deeper and deeper. eventually i start to loose grip and lose sight of it .I guess its time for me to pull myself out and prevent myself from ending up worse than the state i already am .i hope that i can walk away standing tall like i used to ...

2009-05-21T23:32:00.001-07:00

D:<

--

2009-05-18T00:42:00.000-07:00

just came back frm camp tired as hell D: had fun tho but upon the camp ending i figured it is just back to crappy life with lots of problems unsolved

some thing went wrong some where

2009-05-08T08:43:00.001-07:00

its like it all turn inside out and its my fault and yet no matter how far back or how deep i dig in to my memories i dont recall screwing anyone over ever and yet i am treated as if i done something condemable by hell or some sort its only a matter of time before acting nice isnt an option anymore what will you do then?...i probably know u wont even give a fuck even if i was never wrong in the first place

lost without goals

2009-05-03T09:01:00.000-07:00

really where do i really want to end up.. i have no idea.... time to get one soon i guess

stuck in the middle

2009-04-28T05:19:00.000-07:00

not sure if i can take a step forward because i even if i want to i dont know how and the only other option left is to stay where i am an wait for my impending doom well that ain't any better is it must step forward must step forward must step forward must ste.........HOW....

when life gives u lemons.....

2009-04-27T08:53:00.000-07:00

Cant say life has been any more awsome than bad but well as they say when life gives u lemon u become god and change it to orange well maybe not true but instead of the usual rant i would put ill give u something else i guess.

something else 1:

going to get drinks in the fridge and i found keys!!what O_O

something else number 2:

went to 711 after sch today getting some drinks then out of no reason i bought kinder joy..i wonder why as well probably impulse XD look at what i got sooo cute XD he is now among my destop buddies lol

so i guess life isnt half bad <---totaly lieing to self here but it certantly helps if i dont grope around and rant that much (first time posting pics )

Impending self-implosion

2009-04-23T09:10:00.001-07:00

its just a matter of time and i really doubt i can do anything about it cant seem to find soloutions to things around me anymore getting really really tired of this in-ability its ripping my brains out from within

a 1/3

2009-04-22T08:14:00.000-07:00

started school on mon i though i was the only one in the is i was taking thanks to luke i am not alone~~~ tues was semi awsome mmp was fun doing super lame stuff with effects then wed oh god wed 2/3 modules i have today s BLOODY BORING did i made my self clear? BLOODY BORING lucky for me my jap teacher is awsome and i think i just found the only subject/module i would be willing to do their homework XD
random note: i noticed i am starting to type longer and longer but not updating everyday

time for an update on life

2009-04-16T08:34:00.000-07:00

been a month since i started attachment in esplanade met so many good people so many childish people all working together laughing each day off no matter how hard the work can be been nice working with you guys and hope that i can work with you again in the future

different

2009-04-12T10:47:00.000-07:00

its just....something something is missing what is it WHAT IS IT

2009-04-10T10:03:00.000-07:00

the feeling to 2 difffernt thoughs going opp direction in my head sounds like nails on a black board it hurts like hell

I am who i am

2009-04-09T09:55:00.000-07:00

i am not a person that will stand idly by and watch others suffer ill try my best to clarify the problem at hand and will help no matter what..but still some people might find me pushy or irritating for what i intended to do out of good will and to those people i am truly truly sorry A man is never an army.A man who tries to be an army will most surely fail.

2009-04-08T08:06:00.000-07:00

for once i decided not to worry or slap myself for aevery thing relating to you besides a little pang of regret i just made my day alot happier but the self guilt that comes with lieing to yourself is building up oh well like i once sid its better to pass each day lauging and joking but looking a little childish than to be serious and grouchy

random stuff i guess/or not

2009-04-07T06:22:00.000-07:00

its like shouting to a hole that is said to grant you happiness if you hear a echo but being warned that no echos will come out of it and yet shouting and hoping every single day that you will even hear a echo only to be disappointed day after day yet still keep going on and on and on... its tiring isnt it?

another emo/rant post

2009-04-06T08:48:00.000-07:00

whats better seeing you and making me happy for that moment but only getting confused over how close i am and yet so far, not seeing you at all and being horribly distracted and confuse but be happy the whole day..or i guess ill just walk away from it all..non is going to make my life any easier in the forseeable future..why must life be so hard to understand

2009-04-01T11:11:00.001-07:00

didnt manage to do what i intended to do but still ill try

2009-03-31T09:18:00.000-07:00

I knew somthing like this will happen again...never expected it would be you. I dont know what to say pissed to the core and bloody as hell angry just trying to not get angry is totally impossible.Thanks for pissing the fucking shit out of me and for totaly ruin my day thanks for fucking nothing

if you are reading this

it most probably not your fault nor was it intentional.as i am still to angry and pissed off

2 years ago a lady once told me about in sch that when one is angry one will most probably misjudge things and do what they usually would not do which most of the time screw their life up

as much as i would try to apologise to you now i am still to pissed off to collect my thoughts

pls know that i am truly sorry that i not only jump to conclusion i was also rude..and that i will apologise to you the next time i see you in person when i am not feeling angry any more

taking a break from everyday life/to clear the mind

2009-03-29T07:11:00.000-07:00

went out with my parents to a one day holiday to melacca<-- i think thats how u spell it had good food for lunch tea and dinner this one-day holiday came at the best time possible giving me a nice time out from life and enjoy good food at the same time.

now that i am back to singapore i guess i still cant help it but try my best to solve the matter at hand right...... still totaly no where near the answer

food for though time

2009-03-27T23:23:00.000-07:00

i cant correct what is not seen or told

2009-03-27T07:54:00.000-07:00

the line between arogance and self-trust is kinda hard to see is it not?

2009-03-25T06:42:00.001-07:00

*facetable*....

2009-03-25T06:35:00.000-07:00

i tell people to dont think so much....yet i am guilty of it...

I guess no matter how one tries to totally change oneself the change can never b complete

2009-03-24T07:15:00.000-07:00

i told myself to stop my usual procrastination a long long long time ago.....its still here and i dont like it

...

2009-03-24T07:11:00.000-07:00

today wasent so bad...i made it tru the day without felling totaly wiped out must be thanks to the 2 cups of coffee i drank lets hope tomorrow would be a little better since i am getting used to it.

results

2009-03-19T17:31:00.000-07:00

ACOUSTICS & MUSIC TECHNOLOGY

ANALOGUE ELECTRONICS

AUDIO ELN & ELR PRACTICAL SKILLS

COMMUNICATION TOOLKIT

B+

COMPUTER AIDED DRAWING

DIGITAL ELECTRONICS & PRACTICE

ENGINEERING MATHEMATICS 3A

C+

INDIVIDUAL


INTRODUCTION TO TECHNICAL THEATRE			C

AND THE COMMUNITY

happenings

2009-03-19T03:56:00.000-07:00

twice i though i have done somthing but only until abour 2 hrs later i figured out i havent done it X_X epic

not at all happy now so heres a song

2009-03-15T08:58:00.000-07:00

これ以上何を失えば　心は許されるの
どれ程の痛みならば　もういちど君に会える
One more time　季節よ　うつろわないで
One more time 　ふざけあった　時間よ

くいちがう時はいつも　僕が先に折れたね
わがままな性格が　なおさら愛しくさせた
One more chance　記憶に足を取られて
One more chance　次の場所を選べない

いつでも捜しているよ　どっかに君の姿を
向かいのホーム　路地裏の窓
こんなとこにいるはずもないのに
願いはもしも叶うなら　今すぐ君のもとへ
できないことは　もう何もない
すべてかけて抱きしめてみせるよ

寂しさ紛らすだけなら　誰でもいいはずなのに
星が落ちそうな夜だから　自分をいつわれない
One more time　季節よ　うつろわないで
One more time　ふざけあった時間よ

いつでも捜しているよ　どっかに君の姿を
交差点でも　夢の中でも
こんなとこにいるはずもないのに
奇跡がもしも起こるなら　今すぐ君に見せたい
新しい朝　これからの僕
言えなかった「好き」という言葉も

夏の想い出がまわる
ふいに消えた鼓動

いつでも捜しているよ　どっかに君の姿を
明け方の街　桜木町で
こんなとこに来るはずもないのに
願いがもしも叶うなら　今すぐ君のもとへ
できないことは　もう何もない
すべてかけて抱きしめてみせるよ

いつでも捜しているよ　どっかに君の破片を
旅先の店　新聞の隅
こんなとこにあるはずもないのに
奇跡がもしも起こるなら　今すぐ君に見せたい
新しい朝　これからの僕
言えなかった「好き」という言葉も

いつでも捜してしまう　どっかに君の笑顔を
急行待ちの　踏切あたり
こんなとこにいるはずもないのに
命が繰り返すならば　何度も君のもとへ
欲しいものなど　もう何もない
君のほかに大切なものなど

this is the lyrics for theme song for 5 centimeters per second really really sad song if u watched the show

http://www.imeem.com/airinchan/music/4vcKV5BN/yamazaki-masayoshi-one-more-time-one-more-chance/# <--- link to song

its been awhile

2009-03-13T19:42:00.000-07:00

went to the it show on friday crowded as hell X_X going back on sunday to buy my stuff lets hope i live pass that day

..oh wow

2009-03-10T04:05:00.001-07:00

just watch the show 5 centimeters per second ..the most heart wrenching show ever Q_Q it hurts...

2009-03-09T22:55:00.001-07:00

hesitation is a sin and procastination is a crime D:< thats all there is

2009-03-07T08:49:00.001-08:00

went to Serene's house today so fun and funny XD and i never knew the wii was so weeeee XD

what irony

2009-03-04T09:22:00.000-08:00

i am stuck in my own room.... the door refuse to open hmm oh well~~

headliner

2009-03-04T09:08:00.000-08:00

as the master of being random i...i...i am hungry with things settled i got absolutely nothing to do till then..... i guess ill go in to planning >:D

forgetfulness

2009-03-03T17:15:00.000-08:00

forgot to update blog for2 days D: oops ..thinking of getting a job soon oh well

time

2009-03-01T06:58:00.000-08:00

finally got time to put music in my blog awsome Y/N ??? :D

ara ara

2009-02-28T08:01:00.000-08:00

went to the hospital to visit my grandmother again today been there 3 times and all 3 times i fell asleep at the couch >_< oh well was typing this at 00:01 i am going to get pointed out again that i never update my blog daily lol :D edit (it seems i made it)

insert title that u like here

2009-02-27T06:22:00.001-08:00

never good at giving titles dunno why. Went to a karaoke lounge today for the first time in my life >< its just like what i expected to be :D

...

2009-02-26T06:19:00.000-08:00

man I HATE THE FEELING OF BEING SO CLOSE YET SO FAR it irritates the hell outta me D:< but on a happier note....i cant think of any... oh well

movie~~

2009-02-25T07:05:00.000-08:00

for todays movie outing i manage to get 5/8 of the people invited to come well a pass right ?? :P ~~ awsome stuff. *is in totally awsome mode right now*~~~~

OMG

2009-02-24T07:25:00.000-08:00

so totally almost forgot to post today luckkky ~~~~thanks to the holidays i am feeling like myself again (not sure its a good thing or not) but neiter the less ~~~ yay for rest

2009-02-23T06:38:00.000-08:00

ahhh free time comes with holiday just done finish the 2nd and last part of my currrent personal project(which took longer due to exams) ~~~ i feel sooo happppppy

:D

2009-02-22T07:39:00.000-08:00

its been awhile since i have been this bored....*yawn* nothing intersting to write 2day but its the holidays for me so yay~~~

wee HOLIDAYS

2009-02-21T00:13:00.000-08:00

DONE WITH ALL THE PAPERS WOOOOOOO~~~~~
so now i guess its time to enjoy and put a long post (on average of the pass few)
went to the central to have an awsome jap lunch and i am only hinting the lunch was awsome not the process of finding where to eat*hint hint*
and now i am eathing those awsome candy i got from sticky at the basement (pics will come later )

studystudystudystudystudystudystudystudy

2009-02-20T07:33:00.000-08:00

i really should be studying right now but since "someone" *looks left* *looks right* say i never up date daily ill try to prove her wrong lol kk now back to studying ael to avoide a fail *studystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudy*

oh dear...

2009-02-19T04:50:00.000-08:00

mood still in low this days ...
barely studied any ael today but now at least my hair is done and my pet dinosaur is fed i think ill start studing this horrid subject

):

2009-02-18T06:07:00.000-08:00

this is not good... its turing worse by days gone by.. i am starting to hate playing anything D:> i feel less and less in to playing anything esp my psp..<--- totaly not good

on the bright side at least i get to have more free time to do other stuff...i guess

some thing is wrong

2009-02-17T01:49:00.000-08:00

totally dont feel like myself this pass few days..i think i am craking not good NOT GOOD......it will all be back to normal after exams wont it.. i can only hope

D:

2009-02-16T06:46:00.000-08:00

always though i was good at planning 2 steps ahead D: i was wrong i guess....totaly not in the mood to study....D:

omg its a first in a long while

2009-02-15T06:05:00.000-08:00

yup as what the title says its the first time in a very very long while that i manage to actually study D: hurra for me

2009-02-14T03:05:00.001-08:00

thinking too much most of the time....(and i know this aint doing me much good) ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS..........
totaly forgot i must study ael em3a..... must pass D: if not i will die D:D:D:D:D:D: ahhh well talking to much will do me no good ARGGHHH OFF TO STUDY !!!! *throws psp out of room*

On a totaly happy normal lame day

2009-02-13T05:57:00.000-08:00

feeling alot better my mind is clearer :D had to go school for 1 hr just to hand up a paper but what the heck :D life got better i guess

Some thing stupid

2009-02-12T19:51:00.000-08:00

got out of the wrong side of bed felt like a total bloody mess.... cant rember much of what happen yesterday except i did the stupidest thing i ever done in 17 years of my crappy life.....still feeling like crap SCREW STUDIES SCREW TEST SCREW LIFE D:<

Oh well time to put something decent on

2009-02-11T07:43:00.000-08:00

today was a bloody tiring day D: which wed isnt for me *sign*t this is the last time i have to do this

figured out a few useful things today and reminded of a few which i almost forgoten one of which is to never assume stuff you will end up missing out the main points and not look at the whole picture

second is that i totaly suck at studing long periods of time D:

and finally in order to make this post not so emo ill say that while reading stuff of the internet highlighing everything is nice and notepad helps to authough most people dont know what i may be talking about i think some of you will :P

2009-02-11T07:30:00.000-08:00

First post of this what is still half done ill leave the first post without meaning :P because i feel like it