The Invisible And Disappearing

not sure if i can take a step forward because i even if i want to i dont know how and the only other option left is to stay where i am an wait for my impending doom well that ain't any better is it must step forward must step forward must step forward must ste.........HOW....

Cant say life has been any more awsome than bad but well as they say when life gives u lemon u become god and change it to orange well maybe not true but instead of the usual rant i would put ill give u something else i guess.

something else 1:

going to get drinks in the fridge and i found keys!!what O_O

something else number 2:

went to 711 after sch today getting some drinks then out of no reason i bought kinder joy..i wonder why as well probably impulse XD look at what i got sooo cute XD he is now among my destop buddies lol

so i guess life isnt half bad <---totaly lieing to self here but it certantly helps if i dont grope around and rant that much (first time posting pics )

its just a matter of time and i really doubt i can do anything about it cant seem to find soloutions to things around me anymore getting really really tired of this in-ability its ripping my brains out from within

started school on mon i though i was the only one in the is i was taking thanks to luke i am not alone~~~ tues was semi awsome mmp was fun doing super lame stuff with effects then wed oh god wed 2/3 modules i have today s BLOODY BORING did i made my self clear? BLOODY BORING lucky for me my jap teacher is awsome and i think i just found the only subject/module i would be willing to do their homework XD
random note: i noticed i am starting to type longer and longer but not updating everyday

been a month since i started attachment in esplanade met so many good people so many childish people all working together laughing each day off no matter how hard the work can be been nice working with you guys and hope that i can work with you again in the future

its just....something something is missing what is it WHAT IS IT

the feeling to 2 difffernt thoughs going opp direction in my head sounds like nails on a black board it hurts like hell

i am not a person that will stand idly by and watch others suffer ill try my best to clarify the problem at hand and will help no matter what..but still some people might find me pushy or irritating for what i intended to do out of good will and to those people i am truly truly sorry A man is never an army.A man who tries to be an army will most surely fail.

for once i decided not to worry or slap myself for aevery thing relating to you besides a little pang of regret i just made my day alot happier but the self guilt that comes with lieing to yourself is building up oh well like i once sid its better to pass each day lauging and joking but looking a little childish than to be serious and grouchy

its like shouting to a hole that is said to grant you happiness if you hear a echo but being warned that no echos will come out of it and yet shouting and hoping every single day that you will even hear a echo only to be disappointed day after day yet still keep going on and on and on... its tiring isnt it?

whats better seeing you and making me happy for that moment but only getting confused over how close i am and yet so far, not seeing you at all and being horribly distracted and confuse but be happy the whole day..or i guess ill just walk away from it all..non is going to make my life any easier in the forseeable future..why must life be so hard to understand

didnt manage to do what i intended to do but still ill try

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